The Goddess Isis Speaks to Lucius

 "You see me here, Lucius, in answer to your prayer. I am Nature, the universal Mother, mistress of all the elements, primordial child of time, sovereign of all things spiritual, queen of the dead, queen also of the immortals, the single manifestation of all gods and goddesses there are.....though I am worshipped in many aspects , known by countless names, and propitiated with all manner of different rites yet the whole round earth venerates me."

Apuleius-The Golden Ass

 "Seest thou not what they do in the cities of  Judah and the streets of Jerusalem?....The women knead dough to make cakes for the Queen of Heaven." (Jeremiah 7:17-18)

"Then all the men which knew that their wives had burned incense unto other gods, and all the women that stood by, a great multitude, even all the people that dwelt in the land of Egypt, in Pathros, answered Jeremiah, saying....we will certainly....burn incense to the Queen of Heaven....as we have done...in the cities of Judah, and in the streets of Jerusalem: for then....we....were well, and saw no evil....(and the women said) when we burned incense....and poured out drink offerings to her, did we make her cakes to worship her...without our men?" (Jeremiah, 44:14-19)

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The Wisdom of an Exotic Dancer

I have always had a problem with authority. Even as a very small child, I would throw fits if my parents tried to get me to do something I did not want to do.

I have never liked principals, doctors, lawyers, policemen, judges, etc. Did I mention the President? No, I usually do not like the president...(insert country and timeframe here).

What am I doing telling you this? I am admitting my "antisocial personality disorder" if that is what it is...I read a news report that called those who pay attention to the "conspiracy theories" are engaging in this type of behavior. Isn't that what they said about the hippies? And the people that marched with Dr. King?

But I have to admit that I have always felt this way, in a way and in some way about those in charge. Any authority.

Now, I am at the same time: no trouble maker. I have a moral standard that I consider higher than those who make the rules and laws. In my humble opinion. I live this way. I know that my belief in my belief might not save me from any judgement those in power might hand down. So, I also have fear of authority. I felt persecuted by my parents and so maybe have transferred that onto the world in general. No, I know I have-but that doesn't mean I'm not right for doing so...just because you're paranoid doesn't mean they aren't out to get you.

My ideas and beliefs about the nature of our reality, life and the offical account of the history of our planet; religion, technology, science; all would be considered controversial. I do not subscribe to the common point of view. Many don't. Or do they?

I can't even find the truth enough to know what people really think. Do most human beings go with the status quo, or would most be burned at the stake for heresy? I could think that I am the weirdo until I remember that I am on a whole planet and I know that billions of others believe in something other than the "quo".

I am one of the ones who think that our government is corrupt. I would like to clarify my stand: I read or know about conspiracy theories, but there is something I do not believe about them as much as there is something I am not believing about what the other side is telling me. I have seen what was the quo be one thing and be enforced with dire consequences fall away and heresy become the status quo. Christianity would be one of those: in no way do we follow those original rules. (Christians you can't argue with that one because you are faithfully observing the Sabbath, right?)

I can see that I am playing out an Atlantean theme for myself. For me, it was the corruption in Atlantis that caused a great destruction and I can see this theme being played out in my peripheral in this life.

I read a website about Atlantis last night, I have not been trying to gain information on the lost civilization; I let whatever information is coming through to just come through and it always leads me somewhere different. Each time I get a little more information and a little more in depth on my path.

 We laughed when we heard her say: George Bush just wants to be loved...but there was more wisdom in that statement than we can know right now. As much as a part of me (hates) him(I really shouldn't hate anyone) I thank my guides that I am open to hear a truth such as that. If "they" are corrupt and evil then only love would cure that ill and I should know that very well indeed.

I was introduced to the grids. My logical non-technology mind doesn't really like to hear about grids: I indulge me earthly primal goddess side but just before I read this I had to refer to where subjects like Atlantis were on the timeline for me and I could only say that I just could not see it on the same grid as our historical timeline as I was receiving it. Overlayed exactly on top of that idea is also what I feel to be true: that Atlantis did exist. I believe both at the same time.  Reading the grid material gives me a way to see those conflicting ideas as having a place for both to exist.

I can feel my own balance. I can feel my own power, as I have before; but now I am more accepting of it as I fear it less and understand it more. I know my power is tempered and that's the way I like it: it is tempered with love.

What will our timeline show? What will happen in the rest of our history? Are we writing it now or is already written and we can't change it? Does George Bush get to decide the fate of the world? What if he is a good or bad man and either way he believes that pushing the button or going to war is the best thing; but its not and we are destroyed? Does he have that much power in the universe? He must be in the position of leader for a reason, as much all the leaders: trust me I do not like saying that and I am not selling out-I just have to acknowledge the energy and reality that is presented to me but I don't have to like it! (universal lol)

Yes, I think there is more to 9/11 and every other subject each side and every side argues about: I think there is enough weirdness in all of it; from JFK to BigFoot to warrant us seriously looking into these things. I have done the "lets throw all this nonsense out the window and just believe what the authorities tell us" thing. Crazy stuff still happens, does not make sense and changes and you say: "now, what about that"? 

Believing that alternative theories should be looked into and studied does not mean I am hard core sold on any one thing being a truth. There is sanity: you aren't hurting anyone or yourself and you are just honestly trying to understand life and what it all means. Anything else is just whatever: I don't know if those in power(not just the united states but all world leaders)are following the golden rule.

I don't need aliens, lost civilizations, gods and goddesses, prophecy and all the rest to disturb me: if those in power are not as moral as I-well, then that is enough of a conspiracy for me. Enough of a reason we need to answer why there are such big "whys" in our minds about so many things.

I think Atlantis (at this time) rising represents the end of secrets.

Om Shanti World~ 

Here are the most amazing Hubble Telescope pictures I have ever seen. It is Hubble's 15 anniversary! Congratulations Hubble and thank you! And many more. Amazing! I am in tears at the beauty of the cosmos. Seeing these images puts things in perspective for me. Enjoy.

 

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That is so gay...

 We have been watching the reruns of Will and Grace. I did not watch the show when it was on-my understanding is that this is its last season. I can see why it was such a popular show. It makes us laugh. Being able to laugh at homosexuality is a healing for us...

I had my own Will in the 90's. I didn't watch the show because it hit a little too close to home...well, it is the closest a (the first)show about a deep relationship between a gay man and a straight woman(and their gay and straight friends) can come to real life.

I feel they did a good job in the character "Will"; he is very real as a man who happens to be gay. He is exaggerated in his "gayness" at times but it fits him and is real enough. My gay male friend was like this too-he was not a Jack; but I have known "Jacks" too-and usually they are more hurtful than funny. There is a real pain behind all that "ribbing." You feel it after a while.

And, of course my husband lived the lifestyle for eleven years. I still wonder if I should talk about that even though I have talked about it and we are not ashamed of it. I just know how people think; maybe what I would think-that once someone has had sex with same sex-let alone have gay relationships for eleven years: they have GOT to still be gay or that makes them forever "kind of gay". Then I realize I hesitate to tell this part of my husband's past because I do not what anyone thinking I have any less of a man for a husband. Wow. I just articulated that for the first time.

If I tell you that my husband is a beautiful man; and very straight-I am defending that to myself. But, I want to say it anyway-

We have both begun to work on the anger and confusion that we have because he has had sex with men. I do not think about it on any kind of daily or real basis. He is my man and I know him as I know him; but it runs as a underlying current in our marriage because it is that way inside for him. Having the anger and confusion.

We have dealt with his molestation to healing degree, and on the other end been working on sexual/personal issues between us because of his sexual issues...but we haven't openly dealt with the meat in the middle: he had sex with men.

We do have a problem with that: we have certain ideas of who and what a man should be that we were taught and this puts those to the test: we know why this happened for him, we understand intellectually but emotionally we both think: how could he have thought he was gay? And we are mad, mad at the two men who molested him and mad at his mom for being such an awful mom. We are fine with other people being gay, but we have personal blocks about not being gay ourselves. I think the future will prove there are three sexes; male, female and both. Maybe there are more than that...but this is not in my generation and on a personal level even a dreamer knows their generational limits and I will be dead before we have lost all limitation on the sexes. This is my time now and I am a straight woman and Randy is a straight man: so we have a side that feels victimized by homosexuality. (wow that is hard to admit).

Just because you have sex with the same sex: that does not make you gay. And my husband is the first generation of men to speak up and talk about being molested. Men turning to other men as sexual release(for reasons other than consenting same sex adults) is not the same as being gay. Will and Jack are gay men; it is natural and right for them-they were and are meant to be and their gayness is natural. But there is a kind of gayness that is not "natural"; it is a perversion and my husband and millions of girls and boys-men and women are indoctrinated into this every day. Not all victims of sexual abuse are molested by the same sex and those that are do not all "become gay." Some may have been gay anyway and happened to have a same sex molester. Whatever and however each deals with this experience is personal; of course. I just have to seperate, because of how it happened for my husband; molesters from gays. This is what society has just got done working though; seeing that all gays did not equal: child molester.

Because of what was done to him at six and then again at eight; by eighteen he thought he must be gay. We uncovered incest and molestation in his family; shocking beyond belief and trust me-they are for all outward appearances: any normal middle class american family you know.

This is not any kind of public service announcement calling people into action for "the children's sake." There is nothing to do; when face to face confronted with these types of truths most people shut down. It takes each individual story, each person who has gone through this and had the courage to speak out and say that it was wrong and to heal themselves-that is what will change things. We found that when we yelled "Molester" and pointed them out for all to see; heads turned away, eyes lowered and settled on other sights, shoulders shrugged and sighs of "these things happen" were uttered...

When we are not feeling so spiritual, feeling very human; we get mad because we wonder how things would be different if this had not happened to my husband. This is dangerous and against our very own doctrine: we so believe that even such acts are wanted by each soul, victim and victimizer and that we would not maybe have the love and joy we have today had we not been though our fires. But, we indulge in this feeling at times; to be allowed to be angry and feel victimized: we know why some are targets; because they are those sending out a need desperately to be loved and paid attention to(but don't we all) and this call is not answered by those closest to them or the love is given in a twisted way: sexually. Many victims feel guilty because they may have even enjoyed some of the attention and the molesters can feel or use as a defense that they were and did give love to the person. So they believe in their mistaken idea of what love is.

If a girl was molested by a female and then spent a decade believing she may be gay; it is sad to say but that makes it clearer. Sad to say that I am dealing with my own old beliefs about homosexuality...

Me, who lived with a gay man for ten years. Me, who's husband is explained above. Me, who had jobs at lesbian bars and gay clubs in the 90's-who in fact; could only be found in gay places in the 90's and always with gay people. I was on a float in the Gay Pride Parade in Chicago; so has my husband. I knew people that were at Stonewall. And, I started going to the gay bars in Chicago just a few years after they could stop using code words to let people get in the clubs and bars.

We do sit and marvel at how well the rest of america has taken to homosexuality; while we deal with these issues of our own.

It is a strange world, too strange to be an accident.

Later World

Currently Listening Hips Don't Lie Pt.1 By Shakira (Ft Wyclef Jean) Sexy, sexy song... see related

 The beautiful tree at my house. Every year she gets more lovely...I always thought she was an apple blossom but the air is filled with cherry: cherry blossom?

Hope you had a magical earth day. Blessed Be 

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